October 2012
1 post
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Worth
Sometimes I think
I think about everything
Nothing
Myself and everyone
Friends and family
What I’ve done and what I haven’t
And it just ends with the question
“Is it all worth it?”
It will be…?
Yes, absolutely!
No, I suppose.
It’ll just be a meaningless memory and people will hate you for it.
For you let it get to you and everyone else.
So,...
June 2012
5 posts
1 tag
Disease
We’d all like to believe we’ve changed.
We haven’t.
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I don't like this anymore
I want you to be so happy
That I end up hurting more and more
I feel like I’m slowly deteriorating
I looked at your pictures
You are the prettiest
And I just want to burst into tears
I messed up big time
I miss you
I miss what we had
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Isn't it funny...
How we’re willing to go the greatest of lengths
to make the people we love so much happy,
even though we end up hurting more…
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It's mine
Feelings for you.
Secret.
Pain.
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Pain
Shows up in the most inconvenient times.
May 2012
8 posts
1 tag
I’ve been talking to you for a while now. Or rather WE’VE been talking to each other. We’ve become friends, again. That’s good news. Right? Isn’t it?
We hung out for the very first time, in months, with our friends’ and each other’s consent. It was weird, but we got through it. It was nice. You had told me afterwards that it was a good thing that it...
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What do you do
When that one person you talk to the most
Finally realizes how stupid you are
And quits on you.
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You're doing exactly what he did to you...
As you are to me
And you hated that feeling.
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How does something someone said
…Just make you feel like total shit.
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I blur my vision
so I don’t realize how beautiful you are.
…It doesn’t work.
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How dare She
I can hold great conversations.
Who the hell did She want to talk to when She was all depressed!?
Me! Me, baby!
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Hearing Her name makes me
cringe
tickled pink
angry
nervous
stand in silence
You try so hard
And nothing.
March 2012
11 posts
1 tag
I can't stand it anymore...
My mind and body doesn’t want to exist anymore. I’ve lost all hope.
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Who messed up!?
Me!
How much!?
Big time!
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Certain...
Things on my mind.
That something out of my control will happen.
I want to forget what I, all of a sudden, know now.
I don’t want to be me anymore.
Oh, so, certain.
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I'm there again...
One thing happened and I’m expecting too much out of it.
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I'm done with life...
I don’t wanna be here feeling this way.
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I'm cornered...
I feel like my back’s against the wall and every move I make I’ll end up losing.
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Check mate.
No more moves, captain.
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The second half of last week...
Were okay. I didn’t care about anything. Now, I think I’m back to realizing what I’ve lost and am in the same slump I thought I had left.
I’m climbing a pile of trash that is my life. I’ve slipped and fell back in to a sad, depressing cesspool of self-hatred and woe. It’s going to take a while for me to get to its peak and see a bright future.
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A day that seemed to be ending well...
Is now one of the worst. Cried thinking about memories, envisioned what might be happening to Her (has She moved on farther than I have?), and saw Her face for the first time in weeks. My eyes sting and I wish I were dead.
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Death by association.
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I'm better off dead.
February 2012
13 posts
1 tag
What do you do when your friends don't want to...
You cry and apologize.
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How can I fix something...
If they won’t even let me. I don’t want people, especially my friends, to hate me.
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I don't think I've ever been this sad and...
Ever since the day I left my mom. I am alone again, but by my own choice. I hate it, it sucks. I keep replaying it in my mind and this decision is the most logical thing to do. I can’t become friends with anyone anymore, if all I do is harm. I… just can’t.
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There are certain things I wish I didn't stay up...
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I'd be lying to myself...
If I said that this isolation didn’t hurt. I miss my friends, but this is the proper thing to do. I messed up and need to be taken out of the picture.
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I am the biggest piece of shit...
I don’t deserve to be around people for what I did.
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I don't know...
I got in a fight with a friend. We had planned to hang out yesterday, just us. We went out to dinner with others and we got back to Her house. She said that she wanted to take a nap and then she’d call me later to keep hanging out. I took it completely the wrong way. I thought about it in my head as a COMPLETE and ULTIMATE rejection. I made such a big deal out of it and I kind of made a...
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I know where I stand with Her, but...
She doesn’t know where I stand with Her…
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I used to want Her dead...
Now I just want Her gone.
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I believe I'm back where I started...
Should I make the move or should I let Her?
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I want to rip myself apart...
The combination of this feeling of rejection and my stomach pain, I just can’t function!
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Girls and guys can NEVER EVER EVER EVER just be...
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I don't know what to do...
I want to move on, but the heart won’t let me.
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Super nervous...
My plan is working. It’s going as planned. I hate it so much.
January 2012
28 posts
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My heart is beating fast...
‘Cause of the coffee I’m drinking and her…
I see how it is... bitch!
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Let her chase me...
I want to be wanted. I don’t want to want her.
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I'm sorry...
- I said “I love you”
- I’m ready for a committed relationship
- I just want you all the time
- I cared so much
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We all have a calling or a destiny...
Maybe mine’s just to be alone.
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There's no denying it...
Everything’s changed (again) because you said something. Damn it.
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I am a failure...
An idiot at best and a miserable wreck at worst. Why did I do that!? Why couldn’t I just keep it to myself? Everything would’ve stayed the same and the situation would’ve been better than it is now. I am stupid.
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The past annoys the shit out of me.
Pictures from back then just reminds me of people’s feelings and thoughts and I just want to get rid of them.
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We're all narcissistic.
We’re all just attracted to ourselves so we pick people that remind us of us. I am an asshole, so naturally I go out with assholes or jerks.
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How do you not know!?
You are the one I always talk to. You are the only person I’ve been sharing anything with. How do you not know that I love you so? How do you not know that if I tell you this it would ruin what we’ve just repaired?
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I'm falling for you...
Again. You keep me up at night. I hate it when you pout. I like when we pretend to hate each other. I wish you’d want to be with me, as much as I want to be with you. Again.
Not. Again.
